Graduation!

Today is my last day at cosmetology school. I honestly don't know how I feel. I am so happy to be done. I've waited 11 months for this and it's finally came! I want to cry because I'll be leaving a bunch of friends and they're all going to cry as I clock out, I hate crying! It has been such a rollercoaster. I stuck it out and I had my good friend Jen with me the whole time. I can't believe I did it!

Dilemma

I'm having a dilemma, I don't know if I want a house or a condo. The program that was suppose to be tripling our down payment has run out of funds. Supposdily next week they're trying to get more funds. Then my mom and step dad asked me how I felt about getting a condo. They said that all 3 of our names could be on the morgage so I could get credit for it so then once Elio want to get a house both of us can be on the loan and we'll get more money to spend on a house. So I don't know if we should do it.
My friend Jen from school just colored this girls hair here at school. Ok so first let me tell you about this girl, she is a total neat freak. She is anal about everything, where she buys her food, she is crazy about her hair too. She'd rather spend $200 on her highlights and cut than have someone who is really good. So my friend did her highlights and she also toned her. It looks great but of course the girl complained about it. Eden, that's the girls name, even called her stylist and made an appointment to fix it! Jen did such a great job, there were no bleed marks which is impossible to avoid, straight perfect foils, and yet she still keeps complaining about it to everyone. Now it makes Jen look bad like she doesn't know what she's doing.
I have 2 more days of this hell then I will never have to see these people again. Ever since I came to this school I have become more of a rude person than I use to. I use to be a quiet shy happy girl and now I'm loud happy and bitchy.

Salon Day

Today the countdown is 3 more days. Currently I'm getting a bleach wash on my hair to get it to a level four. Which means I'm lightening it all over. I did a grey streak right in the front like Stacy from "What Not to Wear". That was my inspiration. It looks really good now. I bought some Manic Panic from Sallys and tinted it to "virgin snow" that's the name of the color haha. It looks a whole lot more white now!

4 days left

Today is our mock boards. I'm currently dressed in all white scrubs. (Which I bought a size too small because I have a horrible stomache ache) we've ran through everything that we were to do if it was our actual state board test. On my written I received a 94% and so far I've been doing great on all the practical work.

Over Dramatic

My friend came to me this morning and asked if she was being over dramatic. I asked why? She said that before her and her boyfriend were together that he was with another girl. And the reason why they had broken up was to be with my friend. Supposidly the ex called my friends boyfriend 96 times yesterday! 96 times! That's insane! Anyways, my friend had gotten upset and wants him to stop talking to her. She told him if he doesn't stop then she'll settle it her way by leaving him. I don't believe he's doing it intentionally but come on, us girls drop guys for new ones in 2 seconds why can't a guy do that? Weird that's usually the other way around. I guess the cell phone that her boyfriend uses, the ex's father owns the plan, so basically his phone.
Why do guys always have that "extra baggage" that they never tell us about? Oh by the way my exes dad is my boss, I'm lending my car from him. Stupid things like that can be avoided in the man or woman is really into the other.

New Ideas

I have decided that I am going to invest in a photography camera. It is $500 but I've wanted one for so long and it would be so fun to take pictures and being artistic! I also what to start painting. I'm not a painter but I do want to do abstract paint!!

mock mock

Today we did a mock mock of state board. I only had a minus 5 points or it could've been less. I did really well though! Its official I have 10 more days left of school!! July 31st at 11:11am! I'm going to make everyone make a wish as I'm graduating! Soon enough I'll be done and we'll fine a house!
Oh and epic fail; we lost the house. Someone made an offer and it's not available anymore and I was so mad when my boyfriend told me! I did find the exact same model, cheaper, and in the same neighborhood!! Wish us luck!

It's so close, I can taste it!

We are so close to getting this house! I knew once we walked inb to look at it that I wanted it! Everything is so perfect aboutit. I want a red kitchen. I know you may not be able to picture it but it will look so comfy and cozy. And the living room is going to be a sandy color to reflect our black leather couches and dark brown end tables. Have I mentioned the huge closet??? I just can't get over how huge it is! It could be another whole little room :) I hope we get it and put an offer on it soon!

The Good, The Bad, & The Ugly

The good: we found a house!!! It's a 2 story, 3 bed and 2 1/2 baths. Huge masterbedroom, and huge closet !!! The other two rooms have a jack and jill bathroom, the kitchen is big and the living room is perfect! Two car garage and a nice big backyard. $81,900! The only problem is that the taxes are a lot and the HOA fee is $84 a month and honestly I don't care if I need to work another job but that house is amazing! I can picture us living there for years and starting a family there. It's a gated community and a quiet neighborhood.
The Bad: my boyfriend talked to his Dad and he told him that anywhere with a HOA fee may go up every 6 months. And honestly I could care less because in 6 months I'll be making more money anyways. So now he is saying that we should find a place without an HOA fee. The great thing about one is the gated community and the security which makes me feel safe.
The Ugly: yes, I am a jealous person. This girl with a stripper name emailed my boyfriend and all this stuff and yes I got upset. She has fake boobs and looks and seems slutty. I don't go out of my way to talk to guys so it pissed me off that he haaaas to write a comment on her status. Immature I know but if we're going to live together then I don't want him talking to any slutty girls!

18 more days of this

Three study guides, 100-300 questions each, one day of mock mocks, and one day of mock boards. Then I'm officially done with school! I don't believe that it went by so fast.
We are getting our kits ready for state boardand I spent $60 total on everything including my white scrubs. Hopefully this day will be over soon!!

Recycling is sometimes a bad thing

Have you ever recycled a boyfriend? Yes, no, maybe? Or what is it? Recycling a boyfriend is dating them more then once between any given time, or not being able to move on because you always go back to that same ex boyfriend. My friend has done this many times and she ends up getting hurt all over again. It is hard to move on from someone treating you bad over and over and thinking that they're going to change, but guess what?? THEY'RE NOT!! They claim they will but it's programmed into their brains how they're going to act and they won't change. All you have to do is find someone else.
Take a few weeks or months to go out, flirt, mingle, hang out with your girls and watch some favorite movies, go on some walks, do yoga, meditate, go exercise; go do something that you barely had time for when you were with that person. Once you're back on track, go get 'em!
First of all, you can go searching for Mr. Right, they may have been there this whole time (if you're me and are marrying someone you've known since high school) or they could be the next man you bump your cart into at the grocery store.
All my life, until now, I've been searching for love and I'm pretty sure every single woman out there has either found it or is still looking.
Second, you can't settle!! No one should ever settle for something less than what they want o r expect. If you're searching for a soul mate they need to meet all your requirements. Also, don't ever think that a new man in your life can change. Some men need that girl who pushes them to do better and change, either from being a workaholic to an alcholic! Us women change for men all the time. But don't throw this in their face either! Which leads me to the third thing:
ALWAYS be the better man! Not literally, but hypothetically. Don't try and get even with them because their facebook status says "Wow had a crazy insane time last night" because you have no clue what they did or where they went. Instead tell him that you had a great time watching reruns of Sex and the City wearing your Fredricks silky nightgown drinking a glass of wine. Soon enough going out and being with his guy friends will get boring and he'll want to be there with you, half naked of course! But don't let him get off that easy!
Now fourth, the phrase "Sex Sells" may be alright in magazines and t.v. shows but when you're dressing all skanky, you're in your mid thirties and your boobs, belly, butt or all three are hanging out, a man may; no re-phrase, WILL get the wrong impression. If you're going out to the bar with your friends or a clubs with your girlfriends, all guys mostly go there for are either, guy nights out where they want any girl in groping range, or they've had a long day of work and want to unwind and have a beer. Or if you're lucky and it's football season you'll find they finatics there watching the game a scoping out women. Anyways, you never need to up-play the outfit, go casual but sexy. For example, skinny jeans, hot pumps, and an off the shoulder top. Guys love collarbones and want to see them, that outfit screams, I'm not a slut but I am sexy. Or go for a cute dress, mid-thigh, with some cute boots. Don't do the short shorts and ity bity top that may be in your size but should not be wearing it!!
Lastly, get a pen and paper out, sit in a quiet and relaxed room, or to make it comfy grab a bunch of pillows and a blanket and make a relaxation area. Write down everything you want in a man, characteristics, be presise. Make a column for looks. It shouldn't be too long cause if you're that picky about your 6'2, tanned skinned, dark brown hair, blue eyed, 6-pack boyfriend then you've already failed! Make a list of solutions to solve why you think relationships end up ending in your life. Yes be hard on yourself and if you're not then this will not work! Lastly write 3 wishes. These aren't just any ordinary wishes but they need to be in depth. For exampl; I wish that I could find a man who choses me as his first priority other than working out, hanging out with his buddies on the weekend etc. Once all 3 wishes are complete, light a candle. Sit and think of the 3 wishes in your head. Crumble up the piece of paper and burn it until it is ash. Warning: don't burn the house down, we're pretty intelligent women and know how to prevent this so think of options before.
This has helped my friend and I hope it will help many!

When you're in India, don't touch anything but yourself

So for the past week I have been reading the book eat, pray, love by Elizabeth Gilbert. It's a story and her journey to the three I's; Italy, India, and Indonesia. It has been such a great book and such a great inspiration about God and journey. Being able to leave everything and have nothing to living in 3 places for 4 months each to find pleasure, and God. It has made to think about so many things in my life.
Usually, I am such a rude person, it's because of school. I have developed such a hatred for so many people at school that when they say something I saw a rude remark about them which is horrible and I do know this. For the past couple days I have been trying to work on this and not get road raged when the car behind decides not to go the speed limit and speed past me and I take back the curse I put on them and hoping that they'll get a ticket. What's wrong with me? Why in the past 11 months has changed so much to being someone who cuses ever other second, has comments to say to people in not a nice way, and gets upset so easily.
What happen just today is that my close friend that's here at school with me just decided to start being friends again with this one girl, wHY? I have no clue. They started going to the gym again together and everything. And today she comes up to the two of us and asks "Hey sorry I missed your call jen, did you call Lauren?" It just gets me upset and yes I know it is quite selfish of me to think that and be so incredibly angry about it but I will have to admit that I do get possessive over my friends/close friends.
I've decided that soon I'm going to start going to church again. I remember when I was younger in Chicago, we would go every Sunday and I would go to CCSD (which is Catholic school, one day a week) I just miss the structure of going to church and feeling good about praying to God and asking forgiveness for yelling at my Mom or being mean to my brother or not studying as much as I should in school. Every night I try and pray in my bed before I go to sleep, asking to bless my family and being thankful for everything that God has given me. I just want to pay my respects like when I was younger.
Now straying away from that, my boyfriend and I finally started looking at some houses! We saw our first two houses. The first one was beautiful from the outside then once you walked in there was an awful smell of cat pee. There were stains every inch of carpet in the house, even on the stairs, the got every single stair!! It came with all the appliances which was nice. The backyard was about 2 feet out and as wide as the house! That was the worst part. House number two was beat up and crappy from the outside but looking through the windows to the inside it was gorgeous! The walls were a pretty warm yellow and the kitchen was redone and there was wood floors. Our realtor didn't know that they changed the locks so we couldn't get in and yet again the backyard was tiny. Today after my boyfriend gets off work him and the realtor are going to look at 3 more houses and they're the ones that I picked out! I wish we could move out tomorrow. For how impatiencent that I am its killing me having to wait to long to put in an offer, get it accepted then just everything.
Why do the slightest things irritate me?