So for the past week I have been reading the book eat, pray, love by Elizabeth Gilbert. It's a story and her journey to the three I's; Italy, India, and Indonesia. It has been such a great book and such a great inspiration about God and journey. Being able to leave everything and have nothing to living in 3 places for 4 months each to find pleasure, and God. It has made to think about so many things in my life.
Usually, I am such a rude person, it's because of school. I have developed such a hatred for so many people at school that when they say something I saw a rude remark about them which is horrible and I do know this. For the past couple days I have been trying to work on this and not get road raged when the car behind decides not to go the speed limit and speed past me and I take back the curse I put on them and hoping that they'll get a ticket. What's wrong with me? Why in the past 11 months has changed so much to being someone who cuses ever other second, has comments to say to people in not a nice way, and gets upset so easily.
What happen just today is that my close friend that's here at school with me just decided to start being friends again with this one girl, wHY? I have no clue. They started going to the gym again together and everything. And today she comes up to the two of us and asks "Hey sorry I missed your call jen, did you call Lauren?" It just gets me upset and yes I know it is quite selfish of me to think that and be so incredibly angry about it but I will have to admit that I do get possessive over my friends/close friends.
I've decided that soon I'm going to start going to church again. I remember when I was younger in Chicago, we would go every Sunday and I would go to CCSD (which is Catholic school, one day a week) I just miss the structure of going to church and feeling good about praying to God and asking forgiveness for yelling at my Mom or being mean to my brother or not studying as much as I should in school. Every night I try and pray in my bed before I go to sleep, asking to bless my family and being thankful for everything that God has given me. I just want to pay my respects like when I was younger.
Now straying away from that, my boyfriend and I finally started looking at some houses! We saw our first two houses. The first one was beautiful from the outside then once you walked in there was an awful smell of cat pee. There were stains every inch of carpet in the house, even on the stairs, the got every single stair!! It came with all the appliances which was nice. The backyard was about 2 feet out and as wide as the house! That was the worst part. House number two was beat up and crappy from the outside but looking through the windows to the inside it was gorgeous! The walls were a pretty warm yellow and the kitchen was redone and there was wood floors. Our realtor didn't know that they changed the locks so we couldn't get in and yet again the backyard was tiny. Today after my boyfriend gets off work him and the realtor are going to look at 3 more houses and they're the ones that I picked out! I wish we could move out tomorrow. For how impatiencent that I am its killing me having to wait to long to put in an offer, get it accepted then just everything.
Why do the slightest things irritate me?
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