It's almost been 18 months since we've been together. That's almost a milestone to me. The longest relationship that I had was 19 months, after that it was 13, then 9, then 6. So basically they kept getting less and less, I wasn't able to trust as much as I use to, even though I was being the monogamist. I've had a guy tell me "Once a cheater, always a cheater". You could imagine how that made me feel. All throughout high school I had a boyfriend then had one on the side "just in case". I had that feeling that I never wanted to be alone or end up alone. I didn't care about studying or doing homework, it was all about boys. I've told so many guys that I've loved them but ever since this one has been here, it feels like I actually mean it. We're doing things that a real couple would do.
All throughout high school I didn't drive and neither did any of my boyfriends at the time. So it was up to our mothers to drive us back and forth, and trust me that got old quick. A month before college started I received my license. Now when I was dating it was much more efficient and I would actually drive myself.
Almost 2 years ago when E and I started dating, it was so easy. I knew all he wanted to do was to just sleep with me, but I'm great at playing hard to get. It didn't just start 2 years ago when we dated, but in 2008 my grad night from high school we hung out. I stayed the night at his place and we made out for hours. We met about 6 years ago in high school. I was a freshman and he was a senior. I dated one of his good friends, so from now and then we'd see each other at parties and bonfires. He would aimlessly flirt with me and I did the same. Back then he wasn't into the greatest things as in over drinking and the occasional drugs, so I kept my distance. A few years later after his friend and I went our separate ways he would call and ask to pick me up, or tell me to meet him at a party. Of course I was dating someone.
At one time I was dating someone that I was on and off again with for 4 years, I really liked him but he never wanted to go out. I love when guys want to show you off to their friends, but this one didn't. Yeah his best friend knew we were together but no one else. One night I was going to the boyfriend's house at the time and before I came over I went to go hangout with E. He knew I was dating someone, but they all knew I was dating someone but it never stopped a flirt, and wanted to take me out. I said what the hell, he's hot, italian and I was ready to go out that night. I don't quite remember what we did or where we went but all I remember was he dropped me off at the condo, where I was living at with my mother, we both got out of the car, he offered to walk me up to the door but I had told him it was fine, I remembered him saying "God I wish I could kiss you right now" in response I told him he could but I had a boyfriend.
Next thing you know there, we were in the middle of the night, a taken girl was being kissed but this sweet yet playboy of a guy. Now I don't remember if I ended up going to the boyfriend's house or not but I do remember the next night. He text me and said that last night was great and he wanted to see me again. I told him I was at the guys house and he blew up at me when he found out I hung out with E the other night. Why I told him? I don't know, it was to make him jealous and maybe then he'd want to show to me off but after that it was over. Thank god.
E had started a long time ago, but we never made an effort to go through with dating or being together. It was just hooking up and dating. Now after my graduation was when it became obvious that we liked each other. We started randomly hanging out and seeing each other. One night we were in the park drinking a few beers and playing a card game. Another night he took me to a porn store cause I never went to one, that is how random it was. Soon enough I started to come over to his house, I would eat dinner with his family and we'd kiss and laugh all night long until our lips and stomaches hurt from kissing and laughing too much. It was fun, I don't want to say we were casually dating, but neither one of us was seeing anyone else and we both had our full attention on each other.
This was a first for me but I had asked him to be my boyfriend. Well I actually texted him and said "I'm telling being that I have a boyfriend now, how do you feel about that" and his response was "Woah that's a little too fast for me". Of course I didn't talk to him for a few days after that and let him respond to me first. And of course he did, we actually talked about it. It was close to Valentine's Day and I wanted him to be my valentine. I asked him if he was doing anything on the 14th and he said no, we ended up going to sushi and seeing Friday the 13th in theaters. Pretty romantic huh? It was great, just being in his company, I even splurged on a $90 Juicy Couture dress from Nordstrom's Rack, then felt guilty after and returned it. A few weeks later I had told him I loved him. We were joking around about something then all of a sudden I said "I think I'm starting to fall for you". He had gotten quiet after that. He explained to me how much he's been hurt in the past with ex girlfriends cheating on him and everything and I told him that I wouldn't do that, and to this day I have never and will never hurt him. I told him how I was hurt in the past too, it even came out that I had cheated on every single one of my boyfriends. Let me tell you, that was not a good idea to tell him that. Never tell any man that no matter what. I know he's the one because I haven't cheated on him or have ever even thought of the idea. He means too much to me, then he did and now he does even more. He is my sweetheart and I'm his.
A few weeks later he told me that he loved me too. After that I knew everything would come into place. Yes we've had our crazy, outrageous fights, but we've also have had some pretty romantic evenings and days together. I love him with all my heart.
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